Self Destruct (I ate the wine pt. 2)
On that lonesome night I put the bottle to my mouth
I took out my good blade and slit both of my wrists
I smeared my blood all over the walls and I kept punching myself in the face
I used my own blood like lipstick and then I beat my eyes black
I danced around my living room shaking my ass to the sound of the static on my television set
I walked to the hospital and told them that I had attacked myself
"We can't help you tonight, sir." they said, in their white coats and rubber gloves,
thinking that they were something really special and important.
They couldn't help me, so I helped myself.
I made hypodermic needle angel wings.
"Look at my wings Doc! I'm a movie star now, Doc! I'm a real Hollywood guy!" I told them.
"I attacked myself, Doc!" I reminded them once more in case they had forgotten.
"Look at my eyes and lips! I did myself up all pretty for you and now you are going to turn me away?"
I am going to be a star.
I am going to be in the movies.
Scaled Hero
The covered wagon filled with snakes
The wheels cease to turn
The dusty path ahead of us will surely keep our bellies empty
I beg for rain
We are thirsty
Our kettle filled with dirt
Our spirit dried out by the sun
Camouflaged Messiah, locked and loaded
Paranoid guerrilla hiding in the brush
Jungle Christ, rapture ballistics
Baptismal hero with scales hidden in the clouds.
Two Poems by Mike Meraz
A Simple Act Of Survival
you have thought about it.
if not one day you will.
the thought will be with you
for a long time.
for months
maybe even years.
until one day
the thought is gone.
you are actually doing
what you thought about doing
for so long.
it is not the miracle
you once thought it was
but a simple act of survival
as natural as breathing.
you pack up your stuff,
walk out the door,
and leave.
There Is No Such Thing As Failure
there is no such thing as failure,
it is a lie, a hoax, a tall tale
told to you by your parents,
teachers and employers.
there is no such thing as failure.
it is how you look at things,
if you look at things realistically,
not emotionally,
you will find failure
is a lesson on how to succeed.
you have thought about it.
if not one day you will.
the thought will be with you
for a long time.
for months
maybe even years.
until one day
the thought is gone.
you are actually doing
what you thought about doing
for so long.
it is not the miracle
you once thought it was
but a simple act of survival
as natural as breathing.
you pack up your stuff,
walk out the door,
and leave.
There Is No Such Thing As Failure
there is no such thing as failure,
it is a lie, a hoax, a tall tale
told to you by your parents,
teachers and employers.
there is no such thing as failure.
it is how you look at things,
if you look at things realistically,
not emotionally,
you will find failure
is a lesson on how to succeed.
Two Poems by John Tustin
I REMEMBER
I remember you being quite beautiful
and you are quite beautiful still
after all these years,
not even differently so.
It’s not about the way
the light reflects
or the clothing hangs
or the shape of your breasts
or body,
‘though that is spectacular.
It is some unnamable thing,
some glow,
some movement of your mouth
with lips and teeth
of my drunken dreams.
The way your eyes are something
that seem to be
made for me
like God apologizing.
I remember you
as you were
and see you
as you are
and dream you
as what may be.
Tonight it sustains me.
THE SAME ENGINE
all my life
wherever I go
it’s been the same –
the same conspiring eyes
on a different face
the same chastising mouth
on a different head
the same inexorable killing engine
in a different frame
the same switch
in a different taskmaster’s hand
the same ending
sweetened by different beginnings
I remember you being quite beautiful
and you are quite beautiful still
after all these years,
not even differently so.
It’s not about the way
the light reflects
or the clothing hangs
or the shape of your breasts
or body,
‘though that is spectacular.
It is some unnamable thing,
some glow,
some movement of your mouth
with lips and teeth
of my drunken dreams.
The way your eyes are something
that seem to be
made for me
like God apologizing.
I remember you
as you were
and see you
as you are
and dream you
as what may be.
Tonight it sustains me.
THE SAME ENGINE
all my life
wherever I go
it’s been the same –
the same conspiring eyes
on a different face
the same chastising mouth
on a different head
the same inexorable killing engine
in a different frame
the same switch
in a different taskmaster’s hand
the same ending
sweetened by different beginnings
Two Poems by Stephen Jarrell Williams
Again
Again
she has a grip on me
below the waist
straightening my tower
playing her hand of cards
I reach for the dark heavens
making constellations on the ceiling
she breathes in my ear
whispers the price of slavery
turning over night to dawn
flutter of light through dust motes
her shiny hips rising
from the sea of shadows
gliding to the mirror
disappearing
again.
So Many Times
You
standing there
dressing
in dim light
bulging breasts
pearl buttons
wanting to pull
you
back into bed
squeezing the good
out of you
hoping
you forgive.
Again
she has a grip on me
below the waist
straightening my tower
playing her hand of cards
I reach for the dark heavens
making constellations on the ceiling
she breathes in my ear
whispers the price of slavery
turning over night to dawn
flutter of light through dust motes
her shiny hips rising
from the sea of shadows
gliding to the mirror
disappearing
again.
So Many Times
You
standing there
dressing
in dim light
bulging breasts
pearl buttons
wanting to pull
you
back into bed
squeezing the good
out of you
hoping
you forgive.
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